Who Am I?

Well I'm just another bored teenager of course. Well I don't like to think of myself as average. I am simply me. I am who God created me to be and I'm ok with that. I'm not perfect. I'm not the prettiest or the smartest girl you'll ever meet, but I'm comfortable in my own skin. I have a purpose in life and I'm going to figure that out and fulfill it someday. I'm different and I don't mind. Some people think I'm weird or strange or crazy, but I don't mind. Love me or hate me, it's your choice and not really something I can change. I know I'm not going to be everyone's favorite person but that's ok, I don't have to be. As long as I can be myself and live life how I should, I'll be happy. I'll deny that sometimes and think I'm miserable, but deep down I'll be happy. I'm not the cookie cutter little miss perfect either. I have my flaws, I've had my tough times that have gone to the extreme. I've gone down dark roads and I'm lucky (not to mention thankful!) to be writing this. Don't try to label me, it's impossible.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

10 Cute Creative Unconventional Dates That I Wish Guys Would Come Up With

Well every magazine and website is doing Valentine's Day stuff, so here's my V-Day special.
No guy has ever taken me on a date like these, but a girl can dream right? Makes me think of those dates on that old MTV show Parental Control...
These are so not the classic dinner and a movie, because I hate cliche. Guys that are cliche are so boring, unless they were acting like that as a joke of course. Not only are they rather different, but they're pretty cheap too.

1. Guitar store. Nuff said. I seriously would LOVE a guy to take me to a guitar store for a date. However, location is just step one. The guy should also serenade the girl and if he's feeling confident. Guitar duel random people in her honor, think medieval reenactment with guitars. However, if the guy sucks at guitar, he should skip over this one.

2. There's this place around where I live called The Skinny Dip. It's a make it yourself frozen yogurt bar! I guess any make it yourself ice cream or frozen yogurt place will suffice. Here's the catch: Make each other's frozen yogurt! Pick each other's flavors and toppings for a surprise, it's all charged by weight anyways. This gives you a chance to get to know your date's likes and dislikes, and have a little fun. Make sure both of you are well aware of any food allergies beforehand.

3. I have to say this. It sounds so middle school, but LASER TAG! Seriously, find a place with teams and have each other's back! Then go out to a cute little cafe or diner later and share laughs. I guess it'll cost as much as dinner and a movie.

4. Next Up: Sushi! I personally love sushi and I love getting sushi with guys that say they'll "eat anything" cause usually they'll hesitate at raw fish. However, it's a fun way to try new things and the guy might just love sushi! I guess this can be a bit on the pricey side... I'm just glad I work at a sushi place and have an employee's discount...

5. Photo shoot. Ok, I guess I'm biased with this one, since I do have a crazy love for photography and graphic design. But what's a better confidence booster than wanting to go on a walk to take some pictures of each other? See who can make the wackiest pose with whatever's around and those cute couples self pictures are always adorable for facebook! Walk in nature is the cost of the memories and camera, personally, I used my iPhone.

6. T-Shirt cutting! No joke! Go buy some extra large T-shirts from the clearance rack and reinvent them! Ladies, cut off the sleeves for your guy to show his arms, guys, measuring tapes (Not that I've ever used them) can lead to some cuddling ;) Bonus points if ya'll go tie dye the shirts too!

7. Science Museum! Yeah in movies all those art museums and guys telling girls they're prettier than the paintings are cute, BUT science museums are so much more fun! You'll get laughs from the interactive parts, it's a great place for some chemistry (I'll admit that was corny...), and you just might learn something!

8.  Not really a date, but an add on. I really love holding hands with my guy when we're driving. Make sure he lets go when he's turning though, safety is important. My little issue with this is that when I drive one handed, I use my right hand, and it's weird to reach my left hand over... but usually my guy drives anyways because I'm just not a big driving fan. Only do this if both of your are comfortable with it. I know I hate when a guy drives with no hands at all.

9. Ok, this is probably the corniest one, but it's so cute! Stay up on video chat or something with a guy at like 2am and cook together! Then the next morning, bring over whatever you cooked. I made microwave brownies with my guy friend over IM once and it was so much fun! Good for if you're away on vacation or something!

10. This one is cliche, but  go do some charity work together! Be it making "You are Beautiful" stickers and stuff to leave in public to going to help at a soup kitchen. I read all these stories about beautiful lucky people helping out others, why can't beautiful lucky couples take some time to help others too?

Monday, January 24, 2011

Musical Singlesisms

Short one today because I'm saving up for a very long one coming soon!
This is what my week has looked like: 

***Satire at bottom of post

- Screw chick flicks and chocolate and tears! Full tank of gas, 6 pack of mountain drew, monster, guitars, nice amps, homecooked Asian food= how us single depressed musicians spend our singles day... Oh yeah, there were some pretty guitars and a trip to Guitar Center and Sam Ash!

- "Romantic" dinner and a movie? How about you take me to a guitar store, play with me, serenade me, and try to impress me. Then, laser tag. Forget dinner where I have to wear a dress and everything, take me home and cook with me, it's more fun, or take me to a coffee shop with live music. Bonus points if you bring me heart shaped guitar picks instead of flowers. 

- Guitar guy: " I can get any girl I want because I play guitar! All it takes is one easy sweet song!" 
Me: "That ain't gonna work on me" 
Guy: "Why not?" 
Me: "Because I can play. Write me a song, lyrics and all, stand out side my window and perform it to me, throwing pebbles and all that sweet stuff included" :P 

- Rainbow roses are awesome, google them. 

- "You're smart, cute, sweet, and beautiful" as reasons for wanting to date me will get a door slammed in your face, and I will be NONE of those as I do so. 

- Bowling is a sucky date, I would just leave. It's worse than putt putt

- Sonic has the least unhealthy french fries

-What do you call a guy that tells women to go make him sandwiches? Single.


 Guitarists And Dating: Satire

-Guy That Plays Guitar= hot stuff that can get a date
-Girl that plays guitar= Asked out by jerks and a-holes and then remains single because she scares hot guitar guys. 
-Guy that can play well AND built his own guitar= Hottest stuff on the market, but then either falls for a blonde ditz or scene "songwriter" that knows nothing about music theory. Either way, she has no guitar skills whatsoever. 
-Girl that has a sparkly pink guitar and THNKS she can play "like Taylor Swift"= Never gonna be taken seriously and all dates will be with completely pansies that don't know good music. 
-Guy that thinks he can play guitar but only has a Fender Squire that he carries around to attempt to look hot= A lot of very short relationships because he's stupid enough to ask out the girls who play guitar only to get dumped after the first time he tries to serenade them. 
-Girl that can't play guitar at all but claims she's "into rock music" which means wannabe punk boybands that play a total of 5 chords = Actually ends up going out with above, until she realizes that the guy that plays guitar is so much hotter. 
-Guy that is in a "punk rock cover band"= Gets the above girl while attempting to get the girl who plays guitar because he thinks he's BA enough for her but ends up embarrassing himself. 
-Guy that plays banjo as well as guitar- Hated by other guitar guys, but wins over the hearts of girls who like banjos, especially Taylor Swift wannabes.
-Girl who wears bunny ears, is obsessed with dinosaurs, and says her boyfriend will teach her guitar= Never actually learns guitar but stays happy with boyfriend and for some reason always has a hotter boyfriend than the girls who play guitar. 
-Guy that says he's "always wanted to learn" guitar but "never has time" and wears too tight skinny jeans = gets laughed at by everyone except girl who is "into music" and girl "plays like Taylor Swift" who either says "I'll teach you!" or "Let's learn together!" They actually make a cute couple that ends up as the ridicule and/or envy of all the single guitarists even though both sides generally suck. 
- Band geek that claims woodwind is better than a guitar=  Doesn't date a guitarist.


Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Prince Charming?

Paul did a "8 Ways to Win My Heart" thing on his Tumblr, so I'll do a prince charming thing just because I feel like it and don't have much else to blog about...

8 Ways to Win My Heart:

1. I have to agree with Paul HAVE GOOD TASTE IN MUSIC! I have a very wide variety so it shouldn't even be that hard to find good music...

2. Don't care when I decide to have a mopey sweatpants and no makeup day. Because I am finally becoming comfortable with myself and after a long time of problems and issues, I am just now beginning to be able to call myself beautiful. I'm not going to let a guy ruin that by wanting me to always be barbie dolled up. I promise, I'll be reasonable and pretty up for proms and weddings and such though XD

3. Don't ask me to change. Don't ask me to not change at all either. I have a very contradictory personality to deal with and I do want to improve myself. I can be really chill and quiet at times and loud and crazy the next moment. If you can't deal with that, don't even try.

4. Don't let me walk all over you. I've had so many guys groveling at my feet and trying to "make me happy" I ain't gonna be happy if you ain't happy too. Plus, its such a bore! There is nothing more annoying than a guy who's "trying to treat me like a queen" because it ends up becoming extremely shallow!

5. Don't tell me to make you a sandwich or go back to the kitchen. I'm a bit of a feminist, even though I believe chivalry isn't dead. I will cook for you, I will take care of you, I will sing to you, I will cuddle, I will even clean,  but I do not do sandwiches unless I truly love you.

6. Be spontaneous. Of course, there's a line between spontaneous and completely insane, so use good judgement. By spontaneous I mean surprise unconventional dates, hugs from behind for no reason (at reasonable times of course, hugs while driving won't end well) I can't stand being mundane and boring so a little creativity will be needed.

7. Serenade me. Sounds simple right? HA! Serenading me with a guitar (or other musical instrument) and singing is good, but to melt me to putty, write me a song and perform it to me from outside my window; yeah I know, fat chance I'd get a movie scene like that, but a girl can dream right?

8. Play at least 6 out of the following instruments: Guitar, bass, voice, mandolin, violin, drums, piano, banjo. However my father might have an additional requirement for select guys: guitar duel.

Here's the outcome of a recent guitar duel : 

Monday, January 10, 2011

Zzz... Zzzz...

I haven't been getting much sleep lately, mainly because I keep spontaneously waking up. How I spontaneously wake up however is quite interesting. For the past few days I've been falling asleep but about 10-30 minutes later I have this crazy weird falling sensation so I bolt up and my mind is spinning and racing faster than I think is possible and I can't grasp any of those thoughts. My first clear thought: " Woah this is like Inception!" that just shows how much of a nerd I am!
Inception is one of my favorite movies of all time and all but, that was truly nerdy. It's a mind bending movie with a ton of symbolism, two elements I absolutely love in a story! The story is pretty AMAZING! The cast is really good too! Ellen Page and Leonardo Decaprio are pretty great as well as the other cast members that I can't remember the names of. As for the speculation of the ending, that is something I won't give too many of my thoughts of to save my readers from spoilers.
Being a writer myself, I will look at it from several perspectives that the writers could have taken. Really there are only three options: Either it fell, it stayed spinning, or the story cut off before either was ABLE to happen. From a writer's standpoint, I have always found that I need to keep my reader on edge at every second. With the anticipation of closure, a writer wants to do the unexpected, thus the wobble. My theory is that before there was time for either to happen, the story ended. It's something I call a "Lady or The Tiger" ending. The reader will never know. In my book that will hopefully be published soon, I've got several situations that are similar and will make my reader hate me. No more will be said about said book for now :P.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Darling Don't You Ever Grow Up

It was my little sister's birthday a few weeks ago so I learned "Never Grow Up" to sing to her. Today I was working on some graphics and it started playing and I just sat there for a while and listened to it. I thought a lot about growing up (I guess that's a given) It's so hard to believe that I'm 17 now and that in about 5 months, I'll be on my own in college. I'll be 18 in June and I'll have to handle everything myself.

I've always loved being an independent person, I have a job and I use my own money from it to buy lunch when I go off campus, I shop for my clothes myself, I basically take care of myself in general with my plans. But I don't do my own laundry and I love my mama's cooking. Part of me can't wait to grow up and start a career and have a family and all that, but another part of me screams to stay like this forever. Senior year is partially a dream for me, I have so much access to all this amazing software and I can do whatever I want with it. I have a security blanket of being a student when doing anything and someone to actually tell me how to do something when I'm stuck. This time next year I'll be doing similar things, but I won't have that safety net.

I want to get out of this town so badly. I want to go away from all the people and the all the hurt more than anything. But that also means I'll be running away from my friends, my life here, and just about everything I know. Thinking about that scares me. Life already isn't innocent anymore, I'm growing up. I don't really want to grow up but yet I do want to grow up. I guess I just need to suck up the fear and face it, then I'll be happy as I grow up and college life starts.

I once wrote a song that went along the lines of "Winter will become spring even though I'm leaving" Honestly, I don't remember much more about that song, but I thought of that line when I'm sitting around thinking of college. It's going to be a new season and a new start, which is exactly what I need. There's too much pain and memories in this season that I'm more than willing to just go away from.

But Dear Reader, hold onto what you have now as much as you can. Life is only going to get tougher as you grow older. You may hate your parent's rules and curfews, but keep your innocence as long as you can, the world is cruel and sometimes you'll be happier not knowing.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

This Week's Playlist

So here's a random one... this is the music that has been stuck in my head for a while... I blame theatre and the 80s craze...

"Jump"- Van Halen
"Livin' On A Prayer"- Bon Jovi
"Thriller" Michael Jackson
"Nieve" The Kooks (Yes, European pop music is one of my musical obsessions)
"The Artist" The Hush Sound (I just can't stop listening to it!)
"I Love Rock and Roll"- Joan Jett and the Blackhearts
"Single Ladies"- Beyonce (Because Will was so obsessed with playing it in his car all day...)
"Knock Em' Out"- Lily Allen- it's just sooo funny!
"Limelight"- Rush
"Last Summer" Lost Prophets

On another note: An awesomesauce musicy friend of mine has started a blog! http://saul-of-tarsus.tumblr.com/ Go read it!

Oh oh oh and today the big thing I did was go to the FRC Robotics Kickoff! To be honest, the challenge they revealed looks really intimidating! Basically our robot has to hang up inflatable tubes on a peg rack looking thingy and try to make the FIRST logo. Also there's the element of minbots that have to climb polls for bonus points, that's going to be the fun part! Well Dear Reader, wish me luck on this! 6 weeks for the team to build this thing and I've got to document it all!