Yay!

Well long time no write! The reason for that: my Macbook died... after dipping into my savings account, I am now typing this from my shiny new Macbook Pro! This is so my latest baby!
As for life, well it's stressful! Stress this, stress that, being a senior is so worth it though! Most exciting part of my day: finding out I get MY OWN MUSIC FOLDER! And not only that but... I GET REAL MUSIC! That's sadly some of the best news I can ever hear right now!
No rants today or anything, it's just such a boring ordinary day!
Today I sang "100 Years" for Five For Fighting, amazing song that makes me realize the importance of every day! It also makes me want to live life to the fullest. Isn't it great that there's some good in the music industry? It's rare, but it's a meaningful song! That makes me happy too!
Hmm... I'm running out of topics to write about lately... and I'm mourning the death of my first Macbook, which took with it to the grave, all the information I had on it. For you computer nerds, I killed the logic board and also the OSX won't mount.

Dreamin'

So many of us dream big. Then we wonder if we'll ever achieve those dreams. Today I was listening to the song "I Have A Dream" by Group 1 Crew. Why is it that sometimes the ones with the wildest dreams are the ones that can make their dreams come true? Is it because all of us other people take things for granted so much? 

I've had a lot or opportunities that others would kill for. I let them pass me by because they're not my dreams, but could very easily be. I used to dream of being a champion equestrian. I used to dream of being a world renown zoologist, now, I don't even have a one single dream for my life. I guess I can say my dream occupation is "Mother" I just want to be married by 23, have a big family, be a stay at home mom/free lance author or work at home with productions. But on the other hand, I can see myself as single and at the top of the career ladder, CEO or head of marketing for some major company. Big dreams, but I'm determined to reach something. God has a plan and a purpose for ALL of us. That includes me and YOU my amazing reader if anyone actually reads this. I just want you to know, you're dreams are reachable, well as long as it's not something like growing wings and flying... but you know what I mean! Dare to dream big. Dare to believe. 

Good comes to those who dare, dreams will be reached, passions will be found, and life will be lived, but you have to DARE to make it all happen. 

"Just a day, just an ordinary day"

It is so ordinary today. That make me wonder why I haven't made it EXTRAordinary yet. I've spent a majority of the day sleeping in for once, which makes me think "Well there goes another day without me at least trying to make a difference in the world" I've only got a certain amount of days to live, why waste it?
This makes me think of the song "Hero" by Superchick. How many people have I passed by this week that I could've said something nice to? How many chances did I have to give someone a smile or a compliment?
I know this sounds so hypocritical coming for me. I'm not the nicest person most of the time, I've got a good bit of mean in me, but I still wish that the world was nicer to each other. I've got a lot of work to do, but so do a lot of people. All I can do is try. Today my goal is to make someone happy. It's been a rough day so far, and I haven't exactly been the nicest person because of some drama, but I'm going to pray that I have the heart to be nice today. You never know where the little things can go...

Why?

Lately, I've been wondering "Why" to a lot of things. Why do we waste time in front of the TV? Why do we like what we like? Why does the sun shine? Why do people like being negative so much? Why are we so pressured into conforming at all times? Why don't we have the boldness to stand out? Why? Why? Why?
Well, the simplest answer to these things that I've gotten is "Because that's how life works." Has anyone thought deeper than that? Well "Why do people act so negative" has it's more specific reasons such as insecurity, history, and things like that. Totally understandable. Now what I don't understand is why people just have to dwell in it. Life is full of pain, but also full of laughter and smiles and hope. Of course someone could just as easily say "Well why are you being an optimist? Life isn't always happy!" My response to that: "Why not? Why CHOOSE to live life like it's all dreary and sad?" What's the point of life if you live in misery? That's just one thing I'll never know I guess.

To Save a Life

It's been a long time since I blogged... but I've got a newfound inspiration to for some unknown reason. I've been sitting in front of a blank screen every day for the past week just trying to figure out what to write. Life's simple and kinda boring.
Today I went to the dentist, wasn't exactly feeling on top of the world, went there with no makeup on and in sweats and crocs. Since my dentist is right next to Lowe's Food, I stopped by redbox. A few weeks ago I saw the trailer for a movie called "To Save a Life" It wasn't a big name movie, and it was made for the small screen, but it was better made than the average Lifetime movie. Nothing reallly amazing, nothing really bad, nothing that stood out. The plot was predictable and the characters were a bit cliche, but the message was amazing. As simple as the movie was, it geared inspriation in me.
I've also been reading up on a little website called "gives me hope", it's full of inspiring stories that make me want to be a better person, and make me want to just love on others.
I spent the past few years living in pure ambition, everything about me and my future and everything I could do. Of course that doesn't mean I'm going to slack off and I still definately want to win at everything, but how many people have I passed that I could've helped? How many lives could I have changed? Could I have traded an ounce of glory just to say something nice? I've been a bitter and cold person, locking in my own emotions while locking the emotions of others out. I was cold hearted and insensitive and just wanted things accomplished. Everything was tough love, getting things going so that there would be success in the end, always about the big picture. Well, what about the small details? I had the details of everything planned, but there were bigger details I missed.
I realized, I've got to take a minute to think before I react, and do somethign each day I'm blessed with life to bless someone else's life.