Fame?

Today I rented the movie Fame. However, the rented disk was damaged at the ending according to my laptop so I haven't seen the ending yet... either way, it was great. I already knew the entertainment business can be rough and dark and everything and what was in that movie was hardly anything, but I still feel teenagers should see that. Sure it's great to believe in dreams and stuff, but it's so hard to achieve them. Working hard and blind ambition and doing what it takes.
What if what it takes isn't what you want to do? What if you were like Jenny and a job meant hooking up with Andy? Would you do it? Would that possibility of fame lead to a compromise like that? Well for Jenny, she still had Marco, even if it was still a tough decision. What if you're like me? Young, ambitious, loving to win, and pretty much a loner? Not saying that I would jump at that chance like any other tramp, but life ain't Hollywood.
Life's gonna be corrupt and dreams will get crushed. It's pretty much to be expected and can't really be prevented. You can't really escape life, just live it. It's about what you do with what you have I guess. If you've got talent, use it and be proud of it. My parents always wanted me to be a great pianist or ballet dancer. At one point I loved it, but at the same time I hated it. When I was 7 I did ballet a lot. I hated it so much but now I regret not staying with it. If only my parents had forced me to keep dancing or keep playing violin or made me start singing earlier in life. I could be great, I had potential and I just didn't grab it when I had the chance.
I'm 17, I've got to work with what I've got. What talent is that? I've switched around and dabbled in everything, but I haven't really found passion yet. I've found things I love, but I don't know if there's anything there that I'm completely in love with. Sure, music and singing and playing guitar are practically my life. I love doing those things as much as I love life, but I don't have the natural talent of the greats. It doesn't just click with me like everyone makes talent out to be like. I thought it clicked at some point. I worked hard and practiced all the time and strived to be the best, but I'm still not the best. I didn't find passion at a young age like who society considers to be the best. So badly do I want to be at the top, I've made the top in lots of things, but are those things my passion?
Skillsusa, tech, filming, more things I love so much. I'm told I've got talent in film, lots of it. But I feel so new to the filming world. I've dabbled but until very recently, I haven't taken it super seriously. Now it's what I want to do with my life. I want to be in film production and management and I might have a passion for it, but it just feels like I'm so new to it. Like I haven't had enough experience or I started way too late. Maybe I've found passion, maybe I haven't. Either way, what have I got to lose?

Top 5 songs right now:
1. "Desperate"- Fireflight- Yep a metal song with a girl. So in love with it.
2. "Out Tonight"- I did just turn 17 and had I night out, listened to this over and over again as I got ready last night.
3. "100 Years"- Five for Fighting- Last day of chorus we sang all our old music from the past 3 years, this was one of them and I've fallen in love with it.
4."Over My Head(Cable Car)" The Fray and covered by A Day to Remember. Can't decide which version I like more. The original version was gorgeous piano rock, but the pounding guitars in the cover are so much fun. I've learned the original version on my acoustic, now to pick up my Jackson for the Drop C cover of it.
5. "Invisible" - Taylor Swift- Just sounds like the kind of thing I should be singing at the moment, well kinda, pretty loosely, but in a way lyrically my life.