Summer Nights

It just hit me that there is less than a month of school left. It's barely dawning on me that I'm going to be a senior so soon. I'll have to make big life changing decisions and honestly, it scares me. It's terrifying, knowing that ones entire future rests in the choices made in one year. I've got senioritis pretty badly already, I've got to work harder to curb it. I feel so old being able to look back at my freshman and sophomore years.

Not only that, but a vast majority of my closest group of friends are graduating. It's hard to believe that I'll be spending lunch up there in the locker bay without some kind or random outburst by one of them. What I'm even more afraid of, is the fact that I'll be alone. If there's anything that bothers me, it's being alone, even if I'm in a crowd of people. I'm naturally a bit of a loner but I like having someone close that I can easily go to when I feel awkward.

On the other side of the fence, it's almost summer. All the times I've persevered through will be relaxed. What will I do without rehearsals and meetings all the time, I do not know but I'll just have to wing it. I'll find something to enjoy all those summer nights with. Tonight's bonfire party went great, got to sing, not really play much, but I loved just about every minute out there (Well can you expect me to like the minutes of deadtime and bugs?) And we did sing cooler things than campfire songs, we had electric guitars and my 4 channel amp if that explains enough.

Well future is the future, only God knows what's gonna happen. I'm just going to trust that I'll end up where I should be and that SkillsUSA will throw another killer bonfire party!