Sunshine!

Sunshine's a fun topic isn't it? Well I was looking through my lyric book and found a song I wrote a while ago. Like 3 weeks ago. It's a duet that needs a ton of tweaking but I'm ok with it.

It's for a guy and a girl but who sings which part doesn't really matter.

Part 1

Part 2

Both

Staring past the window pane

Watching raindrops drip away

You've gotten so sick and tired

Trampled and battered

Broken down, ready to quit

(Ok, so I don't quite know which part should sing this... or how it fits....)

Know the shadows show

There's sunshine after the rain

through the storm

Light is breaking through the clouds

Sunshine's gonna come

Sunshine's gonna come

Dead of night, all alone

Cold won't stay away

There's a fire

Burning from my soul

My heart is beating

Louder than you're screaming

There's a light at the tunnel's end

It's late and sleep won't come tonight

No not tonight

There's a nightingale singing

Later you'll hear a morning lark

But you're no where to be found

Maybe I'm just not looking hard enough

(interlude or chorus or something goes here)

Now you see there's silver lining

Now I see that there can be

Beauty from the ashes

Don't take the blame

For what has come to pass

You know without you

I would not have last

Life has hurt you so

Painful memories attached to risen scars

Know those shadows only show

The sunshine's gonna come

Sunshine's gonna come (Through the pain and scars)

Shadows only show that sunshine's gonna come

Yeah it's not finished yet, but there's the basis. I feel it's a bit repetitive and doesn't have enough shared parts or really a set chorus. A little bit of tweaking should fix it. Sometimes it's so hard to edit something I've written just because I wrote it that way and might love it. No matter how much I love how I wrote something, sometimes it just needs to change. Change can be something hard to accept, especially if it's something I've poured my heart and soul out on.

Summer Nights

It just hit me that there is less than a month of school left. It's barely dawning on me that I'm going to be a senior so soon. I'll have to make big life changing decisions and honestly, it scares me. It's terrifying, knowing that ones entire future rests in the choices made in one year. I've got senioritis pretty badly already, I've got to work harder to curb it. I feel so old being able to look back at my freshman and sophomore years.

Not only that, but a vast majority of my closest group of friends are graduating. It's hard to believe that I'll be spending lunch up there in the locker bay without some kind or random outburst by one of them. What I'm even more afraid of, is the fact that I'll be alone. If there's anything that bothers me, it's being alone, even if I'm in a crowd of people. I'm naturally a bit of a loner but I like having someone close that I can easily go to when I feel awkward.

On the other side of the fence, it's almost summer. All the times I've persevered through will be relaxed. What will I do without rehearsals and meetings all the time, I do not know but I'll just have to wing it. I'll find something to enjoy all those summer nights with. Tonight's bonfire party went great, got to sing, not really play much, but I loved just about every minute out there (Well can you expect me to like the minutes of deadtime and bugs?) And we did sing cooler things than campfire songs, we had electric guitars and my 4 channel amp if that explains enough.

Well future is the future, only God knows what's gonna happen. I'm just going to trust that I'll end up where I should be and that SkillsUSA will throw another killer bonfire party!

Laugh, Love, Live Free and Sing

At youth group yesterday we had some good discussion and thoughts on destiny and dreams. Makes me think about that a little bit more than usual. It's just so mind warping about how the universe and destiny comes together. It is God that has instilled my dreams and all my hopes and desires in me. Yet sometimes, things don't go how I want them to go. Is it that my vision for myself is getting clouded? Is it that I'm losing sight of the prize? Or is it merely the fact that there's something better out there for me and my attempts to get what I think I want is just not it.

There's a way to pursue happiness I guess. I won't find it in the first boy I see, no matter how good looking. I won't find it in the best computer on earth, even if I can do everything on it. It's not in the best guitar ever, no matter how great the sound. It's in my life.

A wise saying I heard went "Love how you live, but live for your love" There's so many things in this world that I love, singing, graphics, guitars, and so much else. Those are good pacifiers, but there's more, Jesus. I just want to be so much more in love with him than everything else.

Looking up at the post title, it's from "Paper Thin Hymn" by Anberlin. It just really stuck out to me. He's in a situation where the one he loves is gone and he's saying that he's still going to live no matter the storms of his life. Beautiful song, he's all alone with only the violins in his head to keep him company, deep, meaningful, and so much better than the trash, drugs, and sex they keep trying to sell to us on more mainstream music.

This sounds too good to be true...

A day without going crazy studying? Really? Well AP exams are over so I'm basically done with school even though there are officially like 11 days left. That just means we're going to watch movies every day in just about all my classes. Easy enough. No assignments about the movies either. Class will be cake. Super excited for tomorrow because I get to see my amazing church family!

So now I'm wondering if I'm the only that can feel IQ points dropping due to AP exams and my senioritis level going way up after every test. So glad I'm done!

Attitude

I'm sitting here listening to "Attitude" by Fireflight. I'm so in love with those lyrics.

I hear the tone in your voice
You see that look in my eyes
I think you're missing the point
You think I've lost my mind

I don't care who started this

Drop the attitude
You don't have to win
It's not me against you
We can start again
Drop the attitude
We don't have to fight
We can make it through
Love can make it right

I think that we should just stop
I think that we need to rewind
Forgive and live like we forgot
We ever drew this line

I love you
I just do not understand
Why we do
What we do

Drop the attitude
You don't have to win
It's not me against you
We can start again
Drop the attitude
We don't have to fight
We can make it through
Love can make it right
Drop the attitude
Love can make it right
Make it right
Make it right

Such an awesome song. It's so true and there are so many people I would love to just sing this to. Sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one that wishes life could be like Glee. You know, with the whole being able to sing what you want to say to someone for a more driving effect? Confession: When I hear a song that relates to something I'd like to scream at someone, I sometimes visualize myself singing it to them. Not gonna be ashamed about that one cause it's just so true.

Unfortunately for me, my songwriting craze died down a bit this week, probably because I haven't stopped working or performing for a week. This week won't be much different but much more fun, maybe I'll go crazy writing again. Bingo and I are back to the norm and working with music tons so hopefully they'll be plenty of music soon.

I'm also currently guitarless... I got convinced that I should at least give Drop C tuning a chance so my guitar is being retuned and my acoustic is MIA because my sister messed with it. I'll probably spend the day retuning it just so I can play again. On the plus, I convinced a friend that the strings I use are absoultely amazing and he's planning on getting a set for his Epiphone.

Top Songs for the past week: In random order because I really can't pick

1. "If It Means A Lot To You" - A Day to Remember- Yep, it's still there

2. "Attitude"- Fireflight- well it's the base of this entry right?

3. "Gives You Hell"- Glee soundtrack- There are a couple guys I know that need this sung to them...

4. "A Place Where You Belong"- Bullet for my Valentine- this is all my friend Patrick's fault...

5. "Angels Fall Down"- Skillet- Just in love with it, that and my soft spot for sweet duets

Oh Boy...

Yeah, boys, boys, boys. Boys are rather dense and stupid for the most part this week. Lots of drama with lots of boys, but I'm not letting that bring me down. I finally got to play that new guitar of mine after getting the floyd rose fixed. However my dad's amp has no distortion at all so I'll have to go buy a pedal or new amp or something.

I got bored in math and sorta wrote a pile of lyrics that fit together and is almost a song. It needs some tweaking and then at the end I wrote this poemish blurb thingy that I thought was kinda nice but doesn't really fit into a song:

It’s about not taking the chance when it’s there. About losing love that one never had. It’s seeing the one you want always thinking about another girl, but never letting your tears fall. It’s wanting that second chance, and believing that someday you’ll get it and everything will be ok in the end.

Under a fake façade, there’s hurt somewhere deep down there.
One that is strong believes that one cannot cry, yet tears are something the strongest accept.

I got it from looking back at those lyrics. I was thinking "Well what exactly is this song about? It changes direction so many times." Well that basically sums up that pile of lyrics. Of course I bet I can pull and tweak at least 2 songs out of it because of the broadness.

When I look back at what I wrote, I'm sitting here thinking "Wow, that's so true!" Taking chances are what makes life interesting. Who wants to stick to the status quo and live never knowing "what if?" What if no one ever dared? What's the point of dreaming if we never actually get up and chase those dreams? I've seen so many people in today's culture just trying to do what the media and others tell them to do, and never thinking for themselves. Those people dream, but are afraid to dream big, afraid of disappointing themselves. Well I can say one will always get disappointed at some point, not everything can be peace, love, and butterflies, but what if they can? What if you chased after your biggest dreams and they come true? How can you live never knowing because you never tried? Don't let someone's words of how they think you can never reach those dreams bring you down. They're not the ones in control. HE is and HE loves you and has plans for you and it is HE that put those dreams inside you and will guide you to reach them.