Smile, You're Beautiful!

Wow things have been crazy lately! Everything from funerals, to boys, to writing, to just plain ol' craziness! "Smile, You're Beautiful" is my latest catchphrase though!

Why? Because I'm getting pretty sick of being "perfect" and "pretty" all the time! I remember I was talking about that sorta stuff with one of my guy friends, who does admit that he's a bit on the chubby side. We made a little deal that if I would send him a picture of myself with no makeup, he would send me a picture of him before he fixed his poofy hair. Well the next morning I did send him that picture, the conclusion, an eye opener that we both do need a bit of a confidence boost.

I do know that I usually come across as bold, confident, and just a little crazy. I've always said I'm comfortable with myself, but then again, "myself" has makeup on, hair styled with a 450 degree iron almost every day, and a constant habit of keeping a tally of everything I eat. "Myself" is also considered quite beautiful (not to be conceited, but me with makeup is pretty good looking) However the me with no makeup, not so much... so many flaws and imperfections. Yeah that's where the all too cliche "Everyone is beautiful" part comes in, but what you don't know is that I can be a total bitch sometimes. Makeup feels more of a symbolic type thing when I think about that. I put on makeup and turn into this sweet charming girl that guys' mother's fall in love with.

Reality check time: I'm not ugly, but looking at myself, I'm probably prettier on the outside when I have makeup than on the inside. Is it so wrong for me to be so comfortable as myself and not the sweet little spazz everyone knows me to be? Is it wrong for me to just have a mental health day and cry? Oh wait, that would mess up the makeup.

Either way, point is guys AND girls, you're beautiful, but you gotta let both sides shine through. Trust me, no one's perfect, no matter how perfect they appear to be.

I remember saying something to that guy friend of mine one day. He asked me why I always wear makeup even though he thinks I don't look too bad without it. My response:" Well when you're skinny like me, it doesn't matter how pretty my face is or how nice I am. What people pay attention to is how Barbie dolled up I am. Skinny= must have makeup to be "pretty" not to mention having to dress better than jeans and a t-shirt to make any sort of impression of being "pretty" if I weighed another 50 lbs, I could be judged for me and my face, not my tiny waist and the amount of mirror time I spent"