The Shadow Proves The Sunshine

Yeah, one of my new favorite songs by Switchfoot. It's totally correct because if you see a shadow, you're sure that there's sunshine somewhere, at least a tiny little ray of it through the clouds. Good thought to ponder considering how many things went wrong today. Let's see today I've had this sick to my stomach feeling about Benefest, the chairty event I'm directing. I know I started that project really really late and I'm really pushing it with due dates but it's looking up. It's no where near how amazing my original plan was, but next year it's going to be better.

So then, I did something completely stupid. I forgot I had a disk in my laptop's disk drive and then forgot it was a laptop drive. I put in a half size disk and now the whole thing is jammed. Of course on the day my dad goes and rents a movie. Tomorrow I'll be taking it into the shop to be fixed. The thing about automatic computers is that my Macbook is constantly trying to spit out those disks, not good. Hopefully I'll make some money at work this week to pay off possible replacement of a wreaked disk drive fees.

I'm running on faith with Benefest right now, I have a ton of stuff that needs to be done and I'm super nervous it won't get done. Of course I trust my team, at least to a point. They say they're getting things taken care of, but I just can't help but worrying. Being sick the past few days has really slowed me down and I feel like a complete slacker for it. It's for the good of others, I'm sure I can give up a little sleep for them right? Well actually it's spring break so I'm getting plenty of sleep at the moment but normally...

I just don't want to intimidate the exec board. Sure I worry like crazy, dream up plans and ideas all day, and all that good stuff, but I don't need them feeling they should do the same. I just want a good reliable team that's ready to do things and pull their weight. Right now I'm actually feeling like a slacker because my team is doing so much when I've got so much downtime. Maybe I should add another extra circular... SkillsUSA, Robotics, FCA, Show Choir, Tech Theatre, Theatre club, Science Olympiad, Choral Council, work, church, why do I still have free time? Hmmm... how about just working harder on what I already do? That's a pretty new one...

I just know something good will come out of this. I'm under a shadow but that means there's some sunshine somewhere and it's shining down on me. Soon the clouds will clear away and there'll be a lot more. I just gotta keep myself patient enough to see it, or look harder.